I'm Back.

 I just need a place of my own to come to and this place happened to have a light on for me.
 I hope none of you still follow me or this could get weird :)

 Reading back on a lot of these posts is embarrassing to say the least, ALOT has changed in the last 6 years of my life. Looking back on when I initially started this blog, I was coming out of a pretty bad place. I wish I could be coming back here with heroic stories of overcoming my internal woes, but I'm starting to think it's a burden I'll be carrying with me for quite some time.
 In fact, it's quite disappointing, really, when I stop to think of all the missed opportunities that occupy the expanse between my former teenage self and the confused twenty something who sits here typing this. Maybe this is something to come back to. I haven't written consistently since I left this blog (creatively that is I do tons of technical writing at school but who cares) and I'm really just at a point in my life where I don't want to miss out on anything. So maybe you'll be seeing more of me. But please, don't get your hopes up.

I was going to cross this out

but everyone misses someone more then they would like to admit. So I'm writing you a six-word letter with no return address to let you know. "I gave you my very best"

i wish that when i thought of you

i wish that when i thought of you that i only remembered the best times and understood why everything changed i wish it was something nice, something that made me comfortable i wish i didnt feel like part of me was always missing; not ALWAYS missing though. because i know it was there. and i think ive come to the conclusion that you took something from me.

coming home

no more crowded streets or noisy busses, im coming home to open fields and silent forests and winding dirt roads.

looking back wont move you forwards now

oh.my.god

Have you seen the medicine

I'm needing to keep my head

upon these shoulders?